Nana Biography

I can repeat that again, that there had been no time in my life when I didn’t think it was a good time, and I think now that this may be the best time. Everything‘s just marvelous. And I do sort of dwell once in a while on what happens if something happens to John. How and what would happen to me and I look at girls that have had this happen, it would be horrible, but I don’t, I really still don’t think that I would go under… Although I would hate it, that would be a big gap, a terrible thing. One of the reasons I’m taking this trip, actually, by myself, and I’m really not – – I don’t really like to travel alone, I hate to come into airports and do all those things alone, I’m doing it because, suppose I have to do all this sometime and I want to be able to cope with everything and people think of me as being very independent, and I think maybe I can be but inside I prefer not to be, you know what I mean? I prefer to lean on John and I do lean on him and, it’s kind of nice to have somebody like that.

Well, I never – talking and struggling – I never really felt that I was struggling, I mean, living with a guy that was in law school, having at that time $200 a month plus a car plus a credit card for gasoline, plus a true so of good clothes, I didn’t have to buy any clothes, plus a mother-in-law who took me every fall and spring up to San Francisco, and bought me a outfit, including the shoes, I did not want for anything, so there was no struggle in the sense of having to save, but I still saved. I was careful about when I went to the market, when I go now, I never buy things out of season or buy expensive foods, unless I’m having somebody very special for dinner that I’m nervous about, then I will buy a fillet roast or something which I never do otherwise.

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