Nana Biography

Did you feel that at the time? 

No. Not always, but I was sometimes grateful that I had an excuse, but not always, but later on I did. And then after I got to be 20, she wasn’t quite so strict. And they always like to know who I was going out with. Was concerned for my well-being, and so I felt that I was cared for. 

When you were kind of angry at your mom and that period of time, what did you do with it? 

I was and kind of rude to her, I think, and then I would feel terribly guilty because she’d say, “oh I think you need a new evening dress, you’re going to be at all those parties. “And she go with me to the store and we pick out a dress and then I was just lovely and afterwards, I would thank her and then I would still feel guilty . I had a lot of guilt feelings. They were always with me somehow because I, I loved that they give, I loved to get the dress, and I love to get all the nice things, but I – I knew it was resentful or something.

You were getting some else that you need.

Maybe, maybe. Well, whatever it was, I knew I wasn’t very nice all the time. Oh just for one – I can remember one summer one day, we were going to go to Nantucket for the summer, I forget. Maybe I was 13 or 14, I didn’t want to go away in the summer. Summertime at all my friends. She said, “no, we’re going to the seashore, and we’re taking the Cook and my little brother, and we were going to drive, and my father , my stepfather would fly or come up on the train for the last two weeks.

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