Nana Biography

That was on my mind the whole time.   so you see there was a conflict there. He just, and that bothered me that he didn’t come, and I wonder if everybody in their lives have things like that that really maybe on their first marriage where they’re not quite sure whether they should or shouldn’t. I knew I wanted to get married, but I’m not sure that I wanted to get married because I love this man so so much, I wanted to get married because this was, this was a way out.

Out of the home scene? 

And also, it was a good way out. You know, and everything was going for us,… I don’t know. And I still think when I think about that marriage, and all, that it would have gone on forever, if we had both, if we could’ve seen what was happening now, course I wouldn’t have this, but I mean that I think that he would not have gone through and given me up, knowing what has happened to him now, because I think his life is rotten. I think he’s…

That’s the kind of thing that sometimes you think when you do look back on it, you wonder, I guess, that’s what you’re saying, now, what if… 

Yes, whether that would’ve made any difference. I don’t think I would’ve had as marvelous and experience of living as I have with Jon. I’m sure I wouldn’t have. But it would have been an exciting life, I mean, he’s an interesting man, and he leads an interesting life too. So, now I, I can think as I am now 62 1/2, which is quite an age, I do once in a while, contemplate getting old. And I think a lot of people do that. I can’t believe it’s going to happen, I don’t think of myself as old, I don’t think 62 anymore is considered terribly old, I have friends that are in their 70s and I don’t consider –I’m thinking of Sheila, for instance, and people that I know that I consider really young, but it hits you once in a while.

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