Nana Biography

Now, you see yourself in the mirror and you see little things that happened to you, so you know, and frankly, I don’t like that. I’ll admit. I can’t say that I’m going to grow old gracefully or accept it. People say that it’s great and you have to accept it. I don’t know, maybe, maybe there are ways that make it easier. But it’s not easy to think about it. For anybody, I guess. Mainly because it’s so great now, and then I – I guess I torture myself. I watch these people in nursing homes and I’ve been to nursing homes and I’ve seen other people. Now I can’t for the life of me think that I would ever be in that condition, and yet it’s entirely possible that I’ll be sitting in a wheelchair someplace sometime, and that really concerns me. But I think maybe that’s universal, is it?

For sure.

And so one thing that comes from that is that I’m nicer to older people. People older than me. Suddenly, I care about Lily Feinstein, and I had lunch with her the other day, and I think – she’s have you seen her since she’s come back?  Well, I really like her, and here she is, a rather frightened person, and she’s very nervous. She’s got serious illness, you know she’s got a pacemaker, and so, she puts on a bright side and all, but she’s not happy out here. And life is just horrible for her, and I often wonder - She had a son, but no relationship with him, her sister had her own life, she has no family that is close to him, and oh, I don’t know, I think that would be – but that could easily happen to me. Except that I probably would stay in the same community, but sure, let’s say something happened to Jon, and the children were off. God knows where, I wouldn’t want to think that Leonard would either be burdened with taking care of me, you always feel that way, so you would be kind of isolated, but I can’t imagine that. I mean, I think about it, but I can’t imagine it ever happening.

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