It was always the boys that called you. There was no me calling up anyone. So I was very spoiled about men, and I realized all of a sudden that I had some power over them. But I also also realized, even though I knew that, I was never secure, I found out one of my boyfriends, the guy that I liked the most, cheated on me, and then I began to realize that I had an insecure feeling, that I would never really give all of my myself to anyone, I just lost my trust.
I really did. It upset me. He was sorry and he wanted forgiveness and all that.
I was almost 18, I’d skip ahead a little bit. I went to college. Then I got a job in the summer working in a dress shop, practically nothing. And that was good for me, because I learned business. I enjoyed popularity, I enjoyed all that. I was frivolous, I’m sure, but when I worked, I was sincere about it. I was always always on time and I did the work.
I feel that I carried through on things. In the meantime, I’m riding horseback every free minute. I made a little money doing this, I rode other peoples horses in shows for them. I went around various horse shows and then got a reputation for that.
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