It was just… It’s funny. I’m not sure being a virgin should make that difference, but maybe it’s an attitude from both of us. There was not enough genuine, affection there, I don’t think. There was something, now that I look back, that was different. Now, maybe it’s my knowledge, or something, that my marriage now, there’s more warmth. I had, I had really no experience ahead of time to know what it was like, and I didn’t think about it that much. Well, you know, you go to bed and it’s OK, and I didn’t really know what an orgasm, I didn’t even know the word orgasm was. I didn’t know what really happened. I didn’t know how long it took. All these questions that girls might ask. We talked about it among ourselves, but none of my friends knew either (laughs).
You didn’t have anywhere to learn it.
No, and our mothers didn’t tell you, as I just explained to you, so you don’t know anything, and, I don’t know whether that’s good or not. I understand the Chinese are in the same position now, they’re all virgins when they get married and they get married late and they seem to work it out, so, I could go both ways on this, I could be argued into the fact that you really ought to know what you’re doing, that sex is wonderful and that you ought to have lessons in it and all that, and now I have another feeling that maybe society is gone overboard on it (laughs).
Tough one to decide.
Yes, I, I, I, I don’t know which way I’d go on that. I guess I think there must be some happy middle ground.
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